It all started when I was in 8th grade. That was the first time I was taken to a Youth Group. I felt kind of felt awkward because I didn't really know a lot about God and wasn't sure what to do, but everyone else was nice and I enjoyed it, so I kept going. Even though I was going all the time I never really surrenedered my life over to God. I knew him but never gave my life to him. I stayed in Youth Group up until the middle of my Junior year in High school.

After a while, they changed how they did Youth Group and I didn't like it. As a result, I was mad and stopped going ( I know stupid reason). But that's how it went. Then my life changed so much. My mom and I weren't getting along. I also lost a few good friends of mine. I wanted to go back but I met people that led me further and further away. It seemed like everything was going wrong in my life. I didn't understand and at the time I thought that God had turned his back on me so that pushed me even farther away from going back to Him.

As time passed I got into worse and worse stuff like drinking and addiction on the internet (you know what I mean). I felt so down all the time and I was so unhappy. I just couldn't deal with it anymore. I didn't like how my life was going or what I was doing. I was hurting so bad and that lead me to cutting myself to get rid of the pain...so I could feel something besides the other pain I was feeling at the time. I was very low at that point in my life.

Then one day I got a glimpse of hope to end the pain I was feeling. I had just begun my Senior year, and got home from school one day and I walked through the door. My mom said I had mail on the table. It was a postcard from my Youth Pastor and I knew it was a sign from God to come back to him and to Church, so I went back and have been going ever since. I feel so much joy in my heart now, and I have since given my life completely over to God. That was two years ago. He has brought me so far and has never let me go. Now I understand that if I'm going through something that's difficult in my life, I just need to give it over to Him and know that He has control and He will handle it the way it is supposed to be handled.