As I studied more and more science I realised that the foundations of science were on very shaky ground. My faith in science began to crumble, although I would have never called it faith at the time. I would have thought I was a very logical and scientific person, not having to rely on weak mythological and superstitious ideas like the existence of God. However my faith in science continued to fall down and in its place was a void.

Having no faith is a worse position than having faith in something that cannot save you. I started on a journey searching for answers to why I exist, what is my purpose etc. I looked to eastern religions and other paths for answers but there were no answers only more questions. I came to a point of wanting to believe in God but I could not because I would have been lying to myself. I just did not believe.

A Christian friend kept giving me books that would appeal to my rational mind like "Who Moved the Stone" by Frank Morrison. I thought the arguments in this book and others were weak and dependent upon the bible which in my mind was just another book. One day she lent me a book she was about to give to a friend of hers called "Joni" by Joni Eareckson.

While I was reading this book, God revealed himself to me so that I could say "I believe in God". It was a heart experience not a mind experience although it required a change of mind to now confess faith in God. My friend gave me a Bible which suddenly was now not just another book but was exciting to read and spoke to me Truth, and gave answers and was personal.

But I was not suddenly transformed into an angel, I still had my personality and my flesh, however my spirit had been transformed. I had been made acceptable to God the Father by and through the blood of Jesus. Nor was I being brainwashed and cultishly manipulated. I am still on a journey with God in which He patiently guides me and transforms me into His likeness.

Romans 12:2 (part of the Bible) says "Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is--his good, pleasing and perfect will."

2 Corinthians 3:18 says "And we, who with unveiled faces all reflect {Or contemplate} the Lord's glory, are being transformed into his likeness with ever-increasing glory, which comes from the Lord, who is the Spirit."

With my conversion to Christianity, I did not suddenly lose all of my ideas and beliefs. I still held onto most of the scientific indoctrination that I had been fed through my education and reading. I did not even suddenly believe in Heaven or that satan was real. I knew I was a Christian and loved Jesus with all my heart.

For about the next 15 years I would have been called a theistic evolutionist. I was passionate about this. My wife had great difficulty in making a decision to marry me because she was a young earth creationist and thought I needed to change my views or we could not be reconciled. Thankfully, with some Christian pre-marriage counseling we were able to overcome this obstacle. She has never bothered me about the topic during all of our marriage. She was probably dismayed that the counselor, a former missionary to Indonesia with W.E.C. a major evangelical missionary organisation seemed more sympathetic to my ideas at the time than hers. However, he in no way belittled my wife or criticised her or accused her of being cultishly brainwashed for holding her ideas. I remember 6 years ago being appalled that a person leading a communion service used the time to rant and rave about creation science instead of focusing on Christ.

Then I began to critically read some materials produced by creation science. This was my own choice, I was not coerced to read them. Arguments were presented that allowed me to critically examine my own views on evolution. After some time I began to have doubts about whether being a Theistic Evolutionist was a logically tenable position. The main doubts I had with the THEORY of evolution were:
1) It is not compatible with the second LAW of thermodynamics.
2) There has been absolutely no evidence in the fossil record for what Charles Darwin hoped would be found of intermediate stages.
3) Mutations have so far, in line with the second LAW of thermodynamics, only been shown to produce a loss of genetic information rather than an increase as required for a "more advanced" species to evolve.
4) The statistical probability for the combination of random mutations required for the evolution from amoeba to philosopher is zero.
5) Geologists with uniformitarian THEORY preconceptions, base their great ages of strata using the work of paleontologists (study fossils) and radiometric dating methods, paleontologists date their fossils using the work of geologists and radiometric dating methods, radiometric dating methods are calibrated according to the work of geologists and paleontologists. It is all a bit incestuous isn't it.
6) Fossils cannot be formed over millions of years, flesh and bones deteriorate and rot too fast.

Of course as a theistic evolutionist I could have got around all these questions by simply believing that God intervened at the right times over millions of years because he is not confined by the LAWS of science. By the same stroke of faith I now believe God did it in 6 literal days and believe that I am no less a thinking and thoughtful person than I was before I had this faith.

On the contrary I find much more liberty in this more simple faith than I had before. I am free before God to change my views and am in no way tied to any cultic influence or oppression. The change from theistic evolutionist to young earth creationist was in some ways similar to my conversion experience. I actually, of my own volition, asked my pastor to pray for me over this issue at the time I was reading the creation science books and felt such a peace and freedom from God and release from doubt in changing my beliefs that I can't ever image going back to my old ways. However, I in no way consider that I have been brainwashed into this new view or spiritually molested in any way.

I capitalised LAW and THEORY to make a point about science. For something to be in the domain of science it has to be falsifiable. The second law of thermodynamics can be proved false simply be building a perpetual motion machine (a machine that will keep on running without adding any energy). Since no such machines have ever been build, (although many have tried), and since many experiments have shown the law to be true, (you have to keep adding energy to keep machines going), scientists call this principle a LAW.

The theories of evolution or creation (young or old) cannot be falsifiable and are therefore outside the realms of science and scientific investigation. These THEORIES have been used in the name of science but they are in essence religious views and require a faith and belief in something. Because they postulate about things of the past and we cannot go back into the past, there is no way to test these theories.

What remains is consistency. Which view is consistent with your other beliefs and preconceptions. When you have cut through all the philosophising and arguments it gets down to what God tells you. If you are comfortable with your particular viewpoint before God, whom you love with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength and with all your mind, it doesn't matter what Carl Weiland, Henry Morris, the Pope or Archbishop of Brisbane thinks about it. Certainly the majority of Jews did not agree with Jesus' viewpoint that He was the Son of God, but that did not change the fact that He is the Son of God.

It is most important that we listen to God and also to love our neighbours as ourselves. As Christians we need to live together peacefully and not take offence with each other.

This is my testimony. It is precious to me. It is the way Jesus entered my life in His patient and loving way to save me from my sinfulness, and from eternal damnation so that I can be with Him forever.

I confess you are my family if you love Jesus and trust in Him as your personal saviour. Belief in God is not enough. James 2:19 says "You believe that there is one God. Good! Even the demons believe that--and shudder."

In addition, church attendance no more makes you a Christian than going to MacDonalds makes you a hamburger (reference Keith Green) Mark 12:30 says "Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength and with all your mind." This love is a passionate love that is you are willing to die for. This love transcends ideologies, doctrines and beliefs.

2 Peter 3:9 says "The Lord is not slow in keeping his promise, as some understand slowness. He is patient with you, not wanting anyone to perish, but everyone to come to repentance."